December 2009
34 posts
“May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope...”
– Neil Gaiman (via youknowyoulovemel) (via rendezvously)
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Your face arrives again, A hope i had become surreal, But under your cover’s, More torture than pleasure, And just past your lips, There’s more anger than laughter, Not now or forever will i ever change you, I know that to go on i’ll break you, my habit…
“You taught my heart a sense i never knew i had, i can’t forget the times...”
– Silverstein
This is the part where the heart just stops...
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Christmas Eve.
What a fag, working on christmas eve. But it all end good. When window shopping with Angie ‘fofular’ and Fazzy. Was a great experience despite the unusual crowd at 313.
Damn i got a lot of things to get when i receive my next pay!!!
New Look pants
Ltd Edition adidas shoes
Shirt at Fresh
Sling back from Zinc
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Crawling.
Crawling in my skin, this wounds they will not heal, fear is how i fall, confusing what is real.
There’s something inside me
That pulls beneath the surface
Consuming, confusing
This lack of self control I fear
Is never ending, controlling
Discomfort, endlessly has pulled
Itself upon me distracting, reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It’s...
F-ing Bored
sheilss:
Dear Ed Westwick (Chuck Bass),
WHAT ARE YOU DOING? I wonder. As I am typing these very words, he’s somewhere out there not giving an F about who I am.
Haha.
I’m delusional, I’m delusional.
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Being dead.
Its much more easier lying down in the deep soil, rather then living on the soil with so many difficulties…
DEAD
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I think i’m not. But i do care.
It’s time to realise. The times that i have spent throughout this whole year, is just a waste of time. All the things that i’ve done to achieve what i want, gone down the drain. I feel like a failure in life for 2009.
2010. Just a few days left to make things right. But i’m still here sitting doing nothing. What can i do? Seems like...
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Regret.
I think i’ve just did something that i’d regret for the rest of my time. Why am i so stupid to actually do that. I really want to know what’s on your mind, what you’d think of the texts that i’ve send. But why why why did i tell you now not to think and just forget about it? Damn. Is this where i belong? Is being who i am now a punishment for what i was...
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Disappointed.
All the sushi’s and the seafood and all the times i’ve spared with you, all down the drain just because of one person. Your mum entrusted me to take care of you and now i, even though i am not wrong, i feel like i have disappoint her. What else is going to happen next. Like i say before, my name ain’t going down bad, it’s your’s who will get tarnished...
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The worst feeling.
The worst feeling in the world is, when the person you love with all your heart and someone you would do anything for, feels the same way about ‘someone else’.
Everyone else...But not me...
wan-soul
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If i could just be brave enough to ask, i would have.
Time Will Tell...All That I've Fought For...
wan-soul
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Content.
Even if it did not come from you, i’m content enough to know what i need to know. Yes, i know he knows and i know he knows that you know so now you know he knows and he told me. Not everything, but it’s enough for me.
I understand how you’re feeling and i can accept the fact that your door is close. Or maybe it’s open, just not for me. Well, i’m happy...
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Confession and withdrawal.
Second day of resolution and i blew it. Why is my heart so itchy activated my hands to type in those words into the phone and send it to her. Why? I truly don’t understand myself now. What have i done? I hope it doesn’t make such a huge impact. I want to keep things out my mind instead i’ve made myself more distracted. I can’t live like this....
Goodbye World
Starting afresh is not that bad after all.
via wan-soul
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First day.
Today marks the first day of fulfilling the resolution i made last night. Yes, resolutions are not only meant for new years. Its meant for people who wants to start anew, to refresh, to open up again to the world that he or she has seen but do not understand. Yes, today has been a good day so far.
I hope its not too obvious, though it feels normal because its been some time...
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What the hell am i thinking.
Everything i ever wanted to happen just wont happen in my time does it. It just backfires over and over again. No matter how hard i try it still wont happen. What the hell am i thinking. Why am i still repeating the same stupid things when i know it wont bloody happen.
You think i just say the things i said for fun? I don’t, ok. I just thought we could start...
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Dugaan Dari Illahi.
TerDiam dan aku terpaku pada kehidupan yg harus ditempuh kesemuanye yg telah ku teraju TeTapi blum ade yg ku temu Siang dan mlm aku bertanya pada diriku yg tidak bermaya siapakah yg sudi utk bersama menjalankn kehidupan yg merana
mengapakah… derita harus melanda dalam hidupku, mengapa seksa yg harus ku alami ohhh haruskah aku, tempuhinya dgn rela hati dgn cabaran, dan...
Loving the touch, but why, why do you make me so...
via - wan-soul
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What the heck is happening.
To you, I really cant help noticing how sometimes i can be someone you look for and most of the time i can just be invisible to you. What kind of game are you playing at because i’m pretty sure i don’t get the picture. Seriously i can be blind and stupid. Do not take my kindness for granted, because i really hate that.
Team-mates, I’m really sorry to...
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Confirm, contrast, confused.
Confirmed one is just a passerby. Picture’s been contrast to the most clear state. I’m really confuse by everything.
I've come to a verdict, about 90% of those using...
(via thelifeofaguy)
and about 50% of them owns a cool camera..
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Waiting.
Waiting for that door of your heart to open. I don’t know until when i can take this pain much longer. Until the day my hope crushes will be the day i regret i stopped hoping. Because when the day you open the door to your heart comes, i fear it’ll be the day i lose hope and gave up.
But i’ll still wait, because my heart opens up to you. And this heart will not close...
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Sick and tired of being alone.
Cause I was born to tell you I love you And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine Stay with me tonight And I’m tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home.
I really want to take good care of you not just like an elder or a brother. But like a prince showering intimacy to his princess.
You make it hard to...